"when you think only of yourself that is all you will have"
ITS THAT SIMPLE
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
NEW!!!!!
GUCCI released new mixtape today!!!!! i know some may not like gucci but i for one LOVE HIM!!! I have listened to most of the tracks and so far i am liking it.
I really like:
PROBLEM
GO
CALL ME REMIX
I GOT EM
http://www.datpiff.com/TheHipHopSourcecom_Gucci_Mane_Yo_Gotti_G-shit.m50097.html
CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!
Friday, June 5, 2009
revelation
I have realized so much about other people and myself n the past few days... I guess its because I'm sitting at home and I really have nothing better to do with my life but nether the less I have realized.... I realized that no one is really ever your true friend. No matter how much you may give or care about a person they will always put themselves first. I know that it is wrong to give and expect things in return but come on now when you continuously give to someone unconditionally u would expect at least half of what you've given right? Maybe I'm just being selfish but its just how I feel. I have realized that no one is here to stay. No use in trying to hold on to people who are not holding on to you. I have realized that I am sooooo tired. I'm tired of giving all of myself to people who don't deserve it or for that matter even want me to begin with. I don't want to force myself on anyone. I'm so tired of debating and arguing with people. I should not have to show or prove myself to anyone. Why can't I just say something and it be the end of it? Or why can't I just be me and you be happy with that? I'm tired of people trying to tell me who I am. Because in actuality I don't even know. I still don't believe that I have found myself. But I do know that I am not what others say I am. I'm tired of being convinced when I know that deep down inside I feel differently. I have also realized that I can read people very well. I kno when someone doesn't like me I know if they are jealous I know when they want the best for me I know if they feel the same way I do. I realized that jealousy is a very hard thing to admit but here I am saying it I am jealous. Of what? Of everything. I'm jealous of the fact that people can be so happy when I am unhappy. I'm jealous of the fact that others have what I don't. I'm jealous of the fact that people are capable of loving and staying in long lasting relationships when I myself has not had a stable loving relationship with anyone in my life. I'm jealous of people who can end things and walk away and never think twice about it. I have realized that I am a person. I have emotions I have feelings. I may seem as though I do not care or things don't phase me but inside I hurt and I cry out for someone just to listen. a couple weeks ago I really had my feelings hurt. I mean I have never had my feelings hurt that way in my life I tried to act as if it did not effect me but it really did hurt.My feelings were hurt by someone who is not even close to me or I even care about but they hurt me more than anyone that is close to me ever has. It took that incident for me to realize that I am capable of being hurt. I thought that I had been hurt in the past but that was small compared to how I felt. I have also realized that a relationship is not something I need but want. I want to be in love I want some one to always be there for me I want have someone there just to talk to I want to be able to say what I want to someone and have no regrets I want to be able to give myself to someone and they give themselves back. But me wanting this has sent me down a downward spiral only ending in disaster. Dead end relationships, dudes who seem to care but really don't, broken promises, heartache, and loneliness. No longer looking but waiting. No longer expecting the best but the worst so I won't get disappointed. Not only in relationships but in everything. I am broken.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I guess they're coming bac
Im starting to see girls wearing jean jackets more often. Now ppl havent worn those in a minute! but i guess they are back in style.
OMG!
Omg I was reading this article and this dude has 11(yes 11) baby mommas and 21 kids and he is only 29. That is just ridiculous. But the fact that he has that many kids is not even the problem its the fact that he cant even take care of them! he didnt even intend on having kids he said "it just happened" now thats a shame...... a word to the wise...... USE PROTECTION!!!!!!!!
And he dont even look good!!!! lol
And he dont even look good!!!! lol
Other
a poem i never published anywhere else
He calls her over
Its late
He greets her with his lips
She knows she has found her soul mate
Her heart beat against his
Before they knew it
Clothes were dropping
Music playing
Candles lit
wet passionate kisses
They move towards the bed
His arms wrapped around her
She melts after every word is said
His touch sends chills down her spine
She wants no other man
He touches her as if she is the only woman n this world
He kisses her again and again
She never wants these feelings to end
A bright light pierces the darkness
N the doorway stands a woman with disgust and anger written all over her face
Damn
that's wen she realizes that she is the other woman
He calls her over
Its late
He greets her with his lips
She knows she has found her soul mate
Her heart beat against his
Before they knew it
Clothes were dropping
Music playing
Candles lit
wet passionate kisses
They move towards the bed
His arms wrapped around her
She melts after every word is said
His touch sends chills down her spine
She wants no other man
He touches her as if she is the only woman n this world
He kisses her again and again
She never wants these feelings to end
A bright light pierces the darkness
N the doorway stands a woman with disgust and anger written all over her face
Damn
that's wen she realizes that she is the other woman
operate
so i wrote this poem a couple of moths ago when i was at school...
hope you like it...
They wheel her down the hall to the operating room...
The doctor prepares himself for this impossible task at hand
She lies almost lifeless on the table dreaming of salt water and beach sand...
He pulls out his scalpel
Hands shaky
Sweat drips down his forehead
Thinking to himself just go head
Dive in
Get it over with
Not nervousness more like unsurity
Is he ready
Is this risk worth it
Putting all into this surgey wen it cud end n tragedy
He breaks the skin
Still unsure but now he's in
Passing tissues and veins searching for this vital organ
As she lay there on the table almost lifeless dreaming of salt water and beach sand...
He searches to find it
But all he can find is fragments of what used to be
as she lie there dreaming of the nights spent swimming n that salt water with a man who she thought loved her
And long walks on the beach sand where she held his hand
And he used to hold hers
The doctor tries to piece together the fragments of what used to be
He watches as the the heart beats on the monitor begin to slow
He tries his hardest to save her
As she lays there on the table almost lifeless with dreams of salt water and beach sand
He wants so much for this surgery to be a success he wants so much for her to survive, overcome this obsticle and live on
Soon the heart beat stops but he is still determined
His colleagues advise him that there is no more than he can do
But he can not stop he wants this so bad
But she lays there now lifeless dreaming of salt water and beach sand
She will never love again...
hope you like it...
They wheel her down the hall to the operating room...
The doctor prepares himself for this impossible task at hand
She lies almost lifeless on the table dreaming of salt water and beach sand...
He pulls out his scalpel
Hands shaky
Sweat drips down his forehead
Thinking to himself just go head
Dive in
Get it over with
Not nervousness more like unsurity
Is he ready
Is this risk worth it
Putting all into this surgey wen it cud end n tragedy
He breaks the skin
Still unsure but now he's in
Passing tissues and veins searching for this vital organ
As she lay there on the table almost lifeless dreaming of salt water and beach sand...
He searches to find it
But all he can find is fragments of what used to be
as she lie there dreaming of the nights spent swimming n that salt water with a man who she thought loved her
And long walks on the beach sand where she held his hand
And he used to hold hers
The doctor tries to piece together the fragments of what used to be
He watches as the the heart beats on the monitor begin to slow
He tries his hardest to save her
As she lays there on the table almost lifeless with dreams of salt water and beach sand
He wants so much for this surgery to be a success he wants so much for her to survive, overcome this obsticle and live on
Soon the heart beat stops but he is still determined
His colleagues advise him that there is no more than he can do
But he can not stop he wants this so bad
But she lays there now lifeless dreaming of salt water and beach sand
She will never love again...
MY FIRST BLOG
So this is my first blog. Usually when i see blogs ppl are usually ranting and raving about random stuff. well mines will b no different lol. i have alot of stuff that goes through my head that i have to get out. sometimes ill b angry sometimes ill b happy sometimes ill b confused and sometimes ill b just curious. so just bare with me :)
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